Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Things are seriously moving now!


It's all set. We head to China in 7 days. We fly out of STL at 10:10am on March 11th and return at 4:45pm on March 28th! We will finally get to hold our sweet baby on March 17th. Oh the thoughts, feelings, questions, and concerns swirling around in my head right now. So much still to do. Did I fill out the last paperwork correctly? Do I have enough suitcases? Do I have the right size clothes for her? Do I have the weather appropriate clothes for her? Will Sarah stay healthy? Will Wayne and I be able to get thru this without killing each other?! Will she like us? Will she cry for 1 day or 29? Will the girls like her? I have questioned every purchase I have made, from bottles to carseat. I have sat up hours at night wondering about her.....and whether or not I can handle a baby at 36 years old. I was 21 and 24 with my girls, and I definately feel quite abit older now. Not to mention abit heavier! Will my back be able to handle carrying a child. Will Sydney be sick when we get her? Did I buy the right travel meds for her? You would think I was a first time parent! ..........breathe.......... "For I know the plans I have for you" I know He loves me and I know that He knows the answers to these questions. There is no way that I could be totally prepared for everything that I will encounter. And I would never want to go on my own strength and knowledge. Jesus paved this path for me and I will be faithful to follow it. I could have never done something this incredibly wonderful on my own. I never could have made this happpen in my life. I could never have felt this love for a child I have never met. Only the one who created me could do this. Only the One......

4 comments:

Carey said...

Ok, I only have an answer to one of your questions...you are DEFINATELY not too old! If you were, that would make me too old as well, =-) and I have some friends quite a bit older than us that have just adopted. As for the rest of your questions...hand em over, girl, to the One who has all the answers. He's already there.

Anonymous said...

Hi, it's Kate's mom --soon to be Annelise's mom. Shoot me a PM so we can exchange email.

We will see you in Guangzhou!!

I have lots of the same questions/fears as you do but you definitely don't have to worry about the "too old". We were 49 and 50 when we got Kate and we are going back for Annelise.

We too are "working the plan and loving it". I never imagined I would be starting over at this age but it is a blast.

See you AND Sydney very soon.

Victoria (onehappymom --Holt BB)

Nancy said...

All I can say is, I hope there is a Starbucks in China, haha...Laptop out of the shop or did Wayne give in and let you purchase a new one?? Make sure you keep us updated while your gone! Can't wait to meet her!

May Momma said...

Hurry up and Bring my Baby Sister home... We love you all, be careful and have fun. Give Sydney a Kiss for me........